LYRICS
THE REAL YOU
Paper nerve, thin skin, counterfeit begging to fit in
look around, they're not your friends
we're not your friends
(We’re not your friends)
Manufactured, not a man, that’s how you’ve always been.
Keep your head low, fall in line That’s your only plan
You got the lines. all memorized, only say what we want to hear
you try so hard just to be seen, but we wish you’d disappear
So can we start new? Meet the real you?
You're wearing a disguise they can see right through.
Give it your all, and I can sit back and watch you fall
Ready set go, Time to show,
who you really are behind the charm you borrow
i already know, i'm gonna be the one to say i told you so
Can’t be left alone, devoid of confidence.
Commonplace approach to life, lack of common sense.
On my last nerve, put my patience to the test.
Not burying this hatchet unless it's in your chest
I found myself but it took a while,
I never changed for the sake of style
I may be hated cause i stayed true
but who the hell would wanna be you?
So can we start new? Meet the real you?
You're wearing a disguise they can see right through.
Give it your all, and I can sit back and watch you fall
Ready set go, Time to show,
who you really are behind the charm you borrow
i already know, i'm gonna be the one to say i told you so
Paper nerve, thin skin, counterfeit begging to fit in
look around, they're not your friends
Paper nerve, thin skin, counterfeit begging to fit in
look around, they're not your friends
So can we start new? Meet the real you?
You're wearing a disguise they can see right through.
Give it your all, and I can sit back and watch you fall
Ready set go, Time to show,
who you really are behind the charm you borrow
i already know, i'm gonna be the one to say i told you so
Ready set go, Time to show,
who you really are behind the charm you borrow
i already know, i'm gonna be the one to say i told you so
life long a wannabe
live for the pageantry
Done with you
HYPOCHONDRIA
Disorders coming for me, you don’t believe it.
You call me paranoid, just because you can’t see it.
I got a sickness but they refuse the operation.
Some call it a problem, Addicted to self medication.
You swear what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
Why do I feel like dying?
Yeah you think that I’m fine.
(you think that I’m fine)
Well your reality and mine never did align
You think I need to unwind
But inside of my mind I got a vision of
Pacing up and down all these white halls.
Banging my head into the padded walls.
Blood draws and x rays, i wanna hear the doctor say
They found a fix for me.
Vision getting blurred, brain leaves rational behind.
Out of sight out of mind, losing both, mad and blind
TELL ME THAT I'M FINE PLEASE, TELL ME THAT I'M FINE.
The voices no one hears, Feeding on my doubts
If it's just a phase, why can’t I phase it out.
Talk me off a ledge. I wanna be alive.
I DON'T WANNA DIE
You swear what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
Why do I feel like dying?
Losing a war with myself, over my personal health.
Screaming my thoughts at the wall cause you won’t listen at all
Try not to let my head win. I pray to god on my knees.
Sometimes I wanna give in, and let me take me. x2
You swear what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
You say what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
Why do I feel like dying?
ROOTS
Disorders coming for me, you don’t believe it.
You call me paranoid, just because you can’t see it.
I got a sickness but they refuse the operation.
Some call it a problem, Addicted to self medication.
You swear what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
Why do I feel like dying?
Yeah you think that I’m fine.
(you think that I’m fine)
Well your reality and mine never did align
You think I need to unwind
But inside of my mind I got a vision of
Pacing up and down all these white halls.
Banging my head into the padded walls.
Blood draws and x rays, i wanna hear the doctor say
They found a fix for me.
Vision getting blurred, brain leaves rational behind.
Out of sight out of mind, losing both, mad and blind
TELL ME THAT I'M FINE PLEASE, TELL ME THAT I'M FINE.
The voices no one hears, Feeding on my doubts
If it's just a phase, why can’t I phase it out.
Talk me off a ledge. I wanna be alive.
I DON'T WANNA DIE
You swear what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
Why do I feel like dying?
Losing a war with myself, over my personal health.
Screaming my thoughts at the wall cause you won’t listen at all
Try not to let my head win. I pray to god on my knees.
Sometimes I wanna give in, and let me take me. x2
You swear what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
You say what’s wrong is only in my head,
it’s never justified, i’m terrified.
Would i be better off alone instead
if there’s no need for a remedy.
Why do I feel like dying?
Welcome to the fashion show
Fuck what you did to earn it, tell me who you know.
Sign the contract so you can't leave us when you grow.
we own you now, make no mistake,
better look them in the eye, do what they say, for your careers sake.
Who do you think you are? Would you change everything about yourself Just to be a star
pucker up just to get an audition, now here's a mint for all that ass you'll be kissin'
We're going back to our old ways, everything was gold days.
Where have they gone, where are they?
Now we see that you're leading us along,
to a place we don't belong.
Put smiles on all the wrong faces,
end up in all the wrong places.
Now we see that you're leading us along,
we're going back to our old ways.
Let me remind you not to forget who we writin' these songs for.
You're just a pawn on the industry chess board.
Navigatin' conversations leave the truth under your hat
if you say what's on your mind, boy they gonna remember that.
We made you, we gave you a shot, we're the only friends you got
now give us what we want, whether you like it or not.
Write something to make me look good for the suits.
Fuck music politics i'm going back to my roots
We're going back to our old ways, everything was gold days.
Where have they gone, where are they?
Now we see that you're leading us along,
to a place we don't belong.
Put smiles on all the wrong faces,
end up in all the wrong places.
Now we see that you're leading us along.
We're going back to our old ways.
Freedom is a feeling that i can't recall,
might as well be writing all my songs on a prison wall.
Now i see past all the mirrors and smoke,
I gave my whole life away with a pen stroke.
Lining your pockets on backs of the artists,
thrown away because my song never charted
you promised!
Glory and fame remember my name,
but when it didn't work out i'm left with the shame
of being, another washed up, has been, never was.
Still the label got it's cut like it always does
lived a lifetime with your foot on my neck
fuck a contract i'm takin back what life i have left.
We're going back to our old ways, everything was gold days.
Where have they gone, where are they?
Now we see that you're leading us along,
to a place we don't belong.
Put smiles on all the wrong faces,
end up in all the wrong places.
Now we see that you're leading us along.
We're going back to our old ways.
We're going back to our old ways, everything was gold days.
Where have they gone, where are they?
Now we see that you're leading us along.
We're going back to our old ways.
HERE FOR WAR
You looked a gift horse right in the mouth,
reached down its throat and tore its song out.
Taking bites out of the hand that feeds,
now there’s nothing left for you when you’re most in need.
You become the heart that pumps the blood of defeat,
perceptions of grandeur, when you’re wanted the least.
How can you be so wrong and not see it.
empty words on your tongue with no meaning.
(I found a way to carry on)
I found a way to carry on
In the absence of you, I'm standing strong.
Now i got a chance to write your wrongs.
Even if you stay, To me you’re already gone.
Nothing to offer. So much to lose.
Can’t stand a leash, so you fashioned a noose.
No self control. left to your devices,
and yet again you succumb to your vices.
I Prayed you won't fail but I knew that you would.
you never rose to the occasion and I knew you never could.
Don’t try. Don't try, To apologize.
You’re not sorry, I see it in your eyes.
You Never bothered to step up to the plate
You were nothing but a second choice in the first place.
I found a way to carry on
In the absence of you, I'm standing strong.
Now i got a chance to write your wrongs.
Even if you stay, To me you’re already gone.
I won't bow, won’t give up now, enough is enough
I'm here for war, rise up Now,
I'm here for war.
I found a way to carry on
In the absence of you, I'm standing strong.
Now i got a chance to write your wrongs.
Even if you stay, To me you’re already gone.
I won't bow, won’t give up now, I won’t bow
In the absence of you i’m standing strong
I won't bow, won’t give up now,
Even if you stay
I'M HERE FOR WAR
I won’t bow
I'M HERE FOR WAR
INSTABILITY
Who’s to blame for my suffering?
why can’t i find relief
Feels like someones out to get me
That’s just something that the weak believe.
A layer of dust on my brain upon the shelf.
You can’t blame the shovel for the hole I dug myself.
Broke, stuck, staring at the screen.
Nothing on my mind, a slave to the routine.
This instability
My own worst enemy
Bitter hostility
I know I’m what’s killing me
This instability
My own worst enemy
Bitter hostility
I know I’m what’s killing me
No ambition, no goals no self respect,
no one else to care what did I expect?
Change of scenery won’t help, i'm sure i'll find.
Never mind the state you’re in, all about your state of mind.
A layer of dust on my brain upon the shelf,
I can’t blame the shovel for the hole I dug myself
low, strange, don't wanna be clean.
A loner A creep, at home in the obscene.
This instability
My own worst enemy
Bitter hostility
I know I’m what’s killing me
This instability
My own worst enemy
Bitter hostility
I know I’m what’s killing me
I'm praying for a miracle,
Cause right now, I feel like I'm invisible.
Don’t tell me how to deal,
cause this, to me, is real.
You probably think that you’re invincible
Don’t offer an apology.
Don’t need your fucking sympathy.
I know i'm not who I wanna be.
I'm the only reason for my misery
This instability
My own worst enemy
Bitter hostility
I know I’m what’s killing me
This instability
My own worst enemy
Bitter hostility
I know I’m what’s killing me
I’m what’s killing me
I’m what’s killing me
CHELSEA
There I go again, repeating my mistakes.
You give your heart to me with trust that it won't break.
Anticipate apologies, happiness not guaranteed.
Try to make peace with my past, but it's my enemy.
Refuse to speak with me, can't look in my eyes,
when you see someone staring back that you don't recognize.
Hands cover my face, i feel so out of place,
but you're still by my side to catch me when I fall from grace.
Hey, Chelsea.
I'm not always gonna be,
all that you expect from me.
Whether I rise or fall,
You’ll be with me through it all.
Hey, Chelsea.
Here I am again, I always get it wrong.
Sometimes I wonder how we ever made it this long.
All the hurt I've ever caused you can't help but remember,
but i can't help myself. sometimes i lose my temper!
Hey, Chelsea.
I'm not always gonna be,
all that you expect from me.
Whether I rise or fall,
You’ll be with me through it all.
Hey, Chelsea.
The less you hope from me, the less i'll let you down (i'll let you down)
escaping great expectations.
The more i promise you the more i let you down (i let you down)
i can't meet great expectations.
Hey, Chelsea.
I'm not always gonna be,
all that you expect from me.
Whether I rise or fall,
You’ll be with me through it all.
Hey, Chelsea.
Hey, Chelsea.
Hey, Chelsea.
COVERED IN SIN
Can’t stop my brain. Don’t tell me to relax.
At war with negativity and panic attacks.
Taught to think the worst, my mind in the gutter,
hard to speak my piece with a st st st st st st stutter.
My desire, to live with a clenched fist,
should scare you more than anything that I can hold with it.
Shaking from the cold sweats, drowning in the dread.
Memorizing epitaphs i keep inside my head
I won't try to pretend, like i'm so innocent,
but i'm not looking to change,
Anything about my ways, you better mind your business.
Cause i'm not looking to change, anything about me.
Everything is wrong, I’m a stranger to myself,
body starts to shutter as my conscience overwhelms.
every ache an indication of a greater threat,
hopefulness is fleeting, death becomes a safe bet.
what do i do, what do i say,
can't tell if that voice is only real to me.
where do i go, where can i stay,
someplace where the sky isn't perpetually grey.
(why can't anybody help me?)
I won't try to pretend, like i'm so innocent,
but i'm not looking to change,
Anything about my ways, you better mind your business.
Cause i'm not looking to change, anything about me.
I want out of my skin,
now that i'm covered in sin
the demons want in.
And they sing like (x4)
I won't try to pretend, but i'm not looking to change.
I won't try to pretend, like i'm so innocent,
but i'm not looking to change,
Anything about my ways, you better mind your business.
Cause i'm not looking to change, anything about me.
Anything about me.
RIOT
Silence your speech,
stay A slave to the screen and it's never ending.
Wolves leading sheep, make you practice what they preach
just to keep you spending.
They fake a smile while they praise your commitment,
it’s ain't a choice if it’s a crime to resist it.
Cant even use what you own if you don’t pay the toll.
If you want what I got, Come try and take it
We’ll start a riot, never keep us quiet fighting on and on and on.
(on and on and on)
A home divided up in arms one sided,
all the love we used to share is gone.
Force fed what they put in our head, We’re beaten down
But we’re not quite dead yet.
So you think you got a say inside this game that they play?
Pre-selected politicians passing pennies for change.
Are you gonna kiss the ring, or will you cut your strings?
Strike a match, we’re setting fire to everything!
If you want what I got, Come try and take it
We’ll start a riot, never keep us quiet fighting on and on and on.
(on and on and on)
A home divided up in arms one sided,
all the love we used to share is gone.
Force fed what they put in our head, We’re beaten down
But we’re not quite dead yet.
We’ll start a riot, never keep us quiet fighting on and on and on.
(on and on and on)
We are a new generation.
The underminded, The angry, the hated.
This world is ours
it’s time to take it back
We are the new generation.
We are the new generation.
We’ll start a riot, never keep us quiet fighting on and on and on.
(on and on and on)
A home divided up in arms one sided,
all the love we used to share is gone.
Force fed what they put in our head, We’re beaten down
But we’re not quite dead yet.
We’ll start a riot, never keep us quiet fighting on and on and on.
(on and on and on)
THE HARDEST DRUG
Stressed out. Self doubt. and I'm falling behind.
Cram my control in a prison from what's left of my mind.
Satisfaction from the chemical reaction in me.
Without intention has my song become a eulogy?
Can’t sleep, my dreams. Keep repeating,
all the pain I’ve felt, tryna find a meaning.
Until then I'll pretend this addiction is medicine.
It won't be long until I'm nodding off again.
Try not to watch you as you walked away,
can't think of anything to make you stay.
Your words in my head on replay.
"You love the drugs more than you ever loved me.
THIS IS GOODBYE, WISH I COULD STAY, BUT I WON'T WATCH YOU DIE,
I can't believe you when you say you're through".
The hardest drug I ever had to quit was you.
Lost afraid. A needle in my vein.
A little pleasure but everyone i love is in pain.
Feels like I'm floating when they find me but I'm stuck on the floor.
And then you left, with only a note on the door.
GOOD BYE, I SAID I LOVE YOU, BUT I WON'T WATCH YOU DIE.
Try not to watch you as you walked away,
can't think of anything to make you stay.
Your words in my head on replay.
"You love the drugs more than you ever loved me.
THIS IS GOODBYE, WISH I COULD STAY, BUT I WON'T WATCH YOU DIE,
I can't believe you when you say you're through".
The hardest drug I ever had to quit was you.
This is goodbye.
You love the drugs more than you ever loved me.
On my knees I'm breaking down.
Call your name but you won't turn around.
GOOD BYE, I SAID I LOVE YOU, BUT I WON'T WATCH YOU DIE
This obsession has its hands around my throat,
an empty home, i'm living with your ghost.
GOOD BYE, I SAID I LOVE YOU, BUT I WON'T WATCH YOU DIE.
GOOD BYE, I SAID I LOVE YOU, BUT I WON'T WATCH YOU DIE.
CREDITS
DRAGGED UNDER IS:
Vocals: Tony Cappocchi
Guitar: Ryan "fluff" Bruce
Bass: Hans Hessberg
Drums: Kalen Anderson
THE WORLD IS IN YOUR WAY
All songs written by:
Dragged Under
Hiram Hernandez
Lyrics By:
Tony Cappocchi
Recorded by:
Hiram Hernandez and Dragged Under
Produced by: Hiram Hernandez
Mixed and Mastered by: Matt Good
DRAGGED UNDER THANKS
Our loved ones and Families for supporting us and showing non stop patience while we do what we love. Joey Bradford, Taylor Brown, Moniker Managment, Mascot Records, Hiram Hernandez, Matt Good, Jared Kruezer, Kalen Anderson, Hans Hessburg, Jay Anderson and the Anderson Family, Justing Ichikawa, Sennheiser, Hosa Cables, Line 6, Dunlop, Bryan Blash, Michael Skaggs, Get Good Drums, Merch Now, Rockworld Merch, Ernie Ball, Empire Ears, Schecter Guitars, Revv Amps, Orange Amps, Finn Mckenty, Jeff Shultz, Mel Torres, The Used, Javi Zarate, Flying J, Home 2 Hotels, Dead American, Pretty Good Records.
Tony Thanks
My Fiance, Chelsea. For being the most supportive person in my life, and encouraging me to pursue music even when it inconvenienced her, this is all for you. My Mom and Dad for putting up with the noise of my bands over the years, Hiram Hernandez for making this album possible. My band mates for always hustling and never asking for anything from the band. Jay Anderson and the Anderson family for literally making us all his sons and keeping the van running, and giving us a place to practice, The Brown Family, Justin Ichikawa, Carissa Cappocchi, Matt Good, Joey Bradford, Moniker Mgmt, Javi Zarate, Andy Serreo, Jared Dines, Austin Dickey, Dylan @ Hosa, Dylan @ EmpireEars, Brian @ Sennheiser, Zesty, Everyone who ever loved, encouraged or disappointed me and inspired me to write. My Vocal Coach Pamela Moore, My clients at PGA, and everyone who's ever supported Dragged Under in any way. This is nothing without you.
Ryan Thanks
Thanks to my Girlfriend Ashley, Mom and Dad, my daughter Ashley Heather, my band mates, Joey and Taylor at Moniker Management, Matt Good, Hiram Hernandez, The Used, Matt @ Line 6, Alex @ Orange Amps, Tim & Luke and the whole Ernie Ball family at Ernie Ball Music Man Guitars, Dylan @ Hosa Cables, Dylan @ Empire Ears, Jeff Shultz, Jason Burns, Pat & Tim @ Fit For An Autopsy, Beau Burchell, Ken Susi and everyone at Fishman Pickups, Bill @ Toontrack, Finn McKenty, Javi Zarate, Andy Williams, Bill Kelliher and most of all anyone who has taken the time to listen to anything this band has done, bought a shirt at a show or played DU music for their friends.
Josh Thanks
First I’d like to thank my parents, Peter and Rachel, for their unconditional support throughout my life, as well as my sister Thalia. Thanks to Hiram Hernandez for helping us bring these songs to life, Matt Good for making them sound amazing, and Bryan Lash for giving us a place to record. Thanks to my guys in Designer Disguise - Jackson Bengtsson, Justin White and Chris Allen - for supporting me since the beginning of this project. And last but not least, thanks to my band mates for sharing this incredible journey with me, that is only just starting.